Identity....

Really never think about your identity until it's stolen - it's who you are, how others see you, how the financial world sees your potential, how you prove that you are who you say you are supposed to be - in a nutshell, your identity is all that you have in this world that is uniquely yours. What happens when it's stolen? How are you supposed to feel?
You never know where it's being used, who's using it, why they're using it....and the hardest part is that it was all out of your control.
My control.
It was all out of MY control.

I went to college.
I had a student loan.
This student loan information was backed up on portable devices by the guarantor of the loan (federal government here, people.....).
These portable devices were kept in a climate controlled room.

This room was broken into.

3.3 Million People's names, SSN, address and date of births were stolen.

I am one of those people.

1 person out of 3.3 million to feel this way.

I received a letter in the mail today from a company I'd never heard of - I thought it was a scam - until I called my student loan company directly and they verified that yes, indeed, this is legit - this really happened - I really should follow what these people tell me to do in the letter.

Helpless, frustrated, saddened, mad, disappointed - you name it, I'm probably feeling it.

Now I'm left to try to protect the pieces - to go down the list of what they recommend doing. They're giving us 12 months of free membership to Triple Alert - to monitor our credit history for free for 12 months. Isn't that generous of them? I mean, my SSN, Name and bday are forever - - they last longer than 12 fucking months! Now, after those 12 "free" months are up, I will have to pay to protect myself for the rest of my life - thank you for this added expense in life!
I'm frustrated now - I don't know what else to do - monitor my credit is about it. I don't know about putting a security freeze on my credit, I don't know how that affects my credit at all....so many things I just don't know - nor did I ever think I would have to know about!

Maybe they should just do away with my student loan altogether - to make up for this security breach - I mean, I trusted these people to contain my information -that trust was broken - there should be more of a repercussion on their end.....
I know - keep dreaming.....

W-T-F!!!!!!!!!!

Well the "W" in the rest of this week is nearly over - thank GOODNESS!!! Today was just so annoying....ah well....I was able to vent with some good peeps, tho what good venting does, I'm not sure - except possibly lessen my desire to jump off a ledge at times....

I do have this annoying cough lingering from my 2-week head/sinus/chest cold thingy.....I'm such a baby when it comes to this stuff - want to be taken care of but know that's not possible yet :-( I don't get sick really - which is why I think I don't know how to take care of myself, other than picking random OTC drugs....My family is telling me to go to the doctor or pharmacist, but I'm just not ready for that yet....part of me makes a mental list of things wrong with me to get it all taken care of at once lol...talk about insane! It's not even that I don't want to go to the doctor because I don't like her or anything - she's probably the nicest one I've ever had! Nothing to do with medical expenses - my job pays the copay on one of the doctor's visits each year. I think I'm just afraid of there actually being something wrong with me. I suspect there already is something wrong..........of course I'm also part hypochondriac.....and obviously after reading this over, it's clear that I have issues......

Indeed!!

Tomorrow will indeed be a "Good Friday" - the beyotch at work that I can't stand won't be around...which always lightens up the mood around the place - coincidence? I think NOT!!!!!

I'm watching The Marriage Ref right now - the couple on is fighting over whether or not the man can have a urinal in their house. How gross! (I believe I've mentioned my randomness...)
Also, quickly, the news tonight promises a story of why hair goes gray and how too much sex might make it go gray faster...if I don't zone out and forget to watch it, I'll keep you posted on what I find....!

Anyways, I've got to come up with some kind of prank that lasts the entire month of April at work.....something I can sucker my boss' wife in with too....she's really funny and I've told her to watch out because I can make the entire month an April's Fool - but honestly, I was bluffing....I've got nothing.....

Omg - I didn't know there were so many different types of urinals....!